those "duh" moments

Belatedly yesterday, I realized that another big contributing factor to my pissiness was lack of sleep. The previous night I had gotten even less sleep than I usually do, and I was quite tired. This became obvious by midafternoon yesterday.

And then I had to go sit through the Company Meeting From Hell. It was, like, alternately the most boring and the most annoying meeting ever. Mostly boring, but there was a rage-honing moment when the CEO read someone's question (we have a system whereby you can anonymously email questions to be answered at company meeting) that went, "wouldn't it be easier to motivate employees if there weren't a wage freeze?" And his response -- after about fifteen minutes of rambly not-answering-the-question propaganda -- was, basically, "we pay you well, we're gonna make you rich pretty soon, and if you don't feel adequately compensated right now, feel free to quit."

I swear it was all I could do at that point to not just stand up and walk out. I was calculating in my head how much vacation time I have saved up and how much money they'd have to give me for it if I quit now, and how many months I could pay the rent on that. Here's a handy tip: When you're seriously thinking that you'd rather be unemployed and destitute than continue working, you REALLY hate your job.

But I decided that half of it was just being tired and therefore cranky, so I held out. Left work a little early, went home and vegged out for a while, and went to bed early.

Feel a bit better today, probably mostly because it's Friday. Dunno if I'll have the energy, though, for Hani's party tonight. We'll see.

And any moment now I'm gonna post something in livejournal that's actually profound and interesting. I swear.

deeper than a puddle

I lied; I don't have anything profound to say. Wah. I was also mistaken about being less tired today than yesterday. More snapping at coworkers. Damn, I wish my cubicle had a door. One coworker suggested putting a "Buzz Off" sign on my cube curtains. I don't think that would go over too well. I've already given my boss plenty of 'tude today.

Girl Scout cookies arrived today. Just what I need, MORE fat in my life. But still, yum! Thin Mints rule!

Reading about the so-called "shadow government" that Cheney and Mr. Hat have got in place. Man, this is bizarre stuff, makes me feel like I'm living in an X-Files episode or something. And Tom Daschle claims he doesn't know anything about it? Hell no, that wouldn't create any potential conflicts or confusion in the event of a national emergency -- of course not! Argh. (read about it)