I lose

Two nights of attempted night-weaning down and I'm about ten times more tired than I was a few days ago when I complained about being so tired I couldn't function. The two-hour chunks I was getting when we nursed throughout the night are looking pretty attractive right now.

I don't know what to do tonight. On one hand I know that I need to be consistent and stick with it through more than just two nights if it's going to have any chance of success. On the other hand I still have to be able to function!! And preferably without losing my temper at the kids every five minutes!

The whole "we don't nurse when it's dark outside, nursies need to sleep, we'll nurse when it gets light outside" thing is working moderately well -- there's been some crying and some angry screaming and arching of back etc., but not more than a few minutes at a time and Ruthie does fall asleep. But she then wants to sleep on top of me and is so restless, tossing and turning all night, flopping from one position to another, and waking me each time of course. So she's just about as badly-off today as I am, except for the advantage of youth (whereas all I have is the advantage of caffeine). And no one around today to bail me out -- there's some kind of big sporting event going on today, maybe you've heard something about it?

(in the midst of all this, I get a call from Isaac's friend's mom, asking me if I'm going "to Arlington for the party" because she wants help finding it -- I hesitated, the phone equivalent of giving her a blank look, and she immediately realized she had made a faux pas -- we weren't invited to this particular birthday party. Not that I care, because I don't much like the kid and Isaac seems indifferent to him, but the other mom was clearly mortified. ah well.)

anyway gotta go moderate a sharing issue -- send strength plz